28 November 2005 (yesterday) (tomorrow)

Olga told me I had done the wrong thing in asking for $200/day from History Detectives, this made me depressed.

In hindsight, maybe I'm not cut out for New York.  I may have moved here too late in life. 

If I had moved here when I was younger, though, I definitely would have fallen apart a lot more quickly than I have.

Why am I even here?  Oh yeah, to do video stuff.  Well, I guess that sort of makes sense.  Still, I had no idea I would end up putting graphics into game shows all night as I watch my life slip through my fingers all night long, night after meaningless night.  If I had known 18 months ago what I would be going through, I would have stayed where I was comfortable.